Random_Guy
10-14-2014, 11:25 AM
this will probably be a long post>
so tl:dr: I accidentally stumbled across something called the deep web, dark web and the shadow web. I was left tramautised and in despair.
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So yesterday night, I was doing my usual procrastinating on the internet. And for some odd reason I decided that it would be a good idea to google the scariest places on the internet at 2am. Soon I was getting a load of ****ed up shit, which were all sickening in its own way but at least I knew it was fake, despite being creeped out. But anyway one thing led to another, I soon stumbled across what is referred to as the deep web. Now basically what is the deep web?
to make it simple, look at this diagram.
http://www.sickchirpse.com/wp-content/uploads/2013/04/deepweb343-670x458.jpg
In words, it is World Wide Web content that is not part of the Surface Web, which is indexed by standard search engines(wikipedia). Interestingly it accounts for 96% of the stuff online, so what the common people like us are browsing are only a part of the 4 %.
So what goes on in this place where your average person cant access and wont be able to access unless you download proxy servers like tor? As you can imagine, a lot of shit (will mention a little more about this later). To the average joes out there, I guess a more commonly known part of the deep web is the Silk Road(a place where you can buy illegal drugs using bitcoins).
Now, as somebody that is mentally fragile, I did not have the guts to really even download the tor to go in. So all I could do was snoop around online and look for pieces of information from people that have actually been there, or other things related with it. To make a long story short, I regretted it. There were just so many disgusting and depraved things related that I continually felt nauseated and depressed for the upcoming day. Two of the most tramautizing things I read about was the Lolita slave girls and the online death show (which seems to have been proved to be false by reddit users, but there are other accounts of it so i dont doubt its existence). If you are interested just go online, but trust me this shit will leave you scarred, not even on the level of horror movies, or liveleak, this is just ....i dont even know how to decribe, it made me want to cry, feel gray and depressed. so many negative emotions...,
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This expereince made me realize, that despite all the scary things in life, the really most horrific part is the depravity of the human mind. Evilness just does not seem to have limits, compared to the stuff on the dark web/shadow web(which are the coined terms for the darker elements of the deep web), ISIS seems like child play. Ironically, the scariest part of the whole encounter was how I became "addicted" to searching for more info on it. Despite the feeling of extreme disgust, I still kept on looking for more stories, more stuff, despite the guilt, I wanted to see more, to know more about just how low humans can think. Its an odd feeling, a disgusting feeling even. For those who do not have exceptionally strong moral standards and optmism, I also discourage you from seeking this topic, as this may not only tramautize you but lead you down a dark path.
For what its worth, you may say I am exaggerating, but truly, last night was one of those things that you wished had never happened. The point being that I didnt even access the web. Maybe I am just weak minded, but I also understand that this world needs more sun and good.
Im going to end it here before this turns into a preach.
Hope all is well,..
so tl:dr: I accidentally stumbled across something called the deep web, dark web and the shadow web. I was left tramautised and in despair.
...................................
So yesterday night, I was doing my usual procrastinating on the internet. And for some odd reason I decided that it would be a good idea to google the scariest places on the internet at 2am. Soon I was getting a load of ****ed up shit, which were all sickening in its own way but at least I knew it was fake, despite being creeped out. But anyway one thing led to another, I soon stumbled across what is referred to as the deep web. Now basically what is the deep web?
to make it simple, look at this diagram.
http://www.sickchirpse.com/wp-content/uploads/2013/04/deepweb343-670x458.jpg
In words, it is World Wide Web content that is not part of the Surface Web, which is indexed by standard search engines(wikipedia). Interestingly it accounts for 96% of the stuff online, so what the common people like us are browsing are only a part of the 4 %.
So what goes on in this place where your average person cant access and wont be able to access unless you download proxy servers like tor? As you can imagine, a lot of shit (will mention a little more about this later). To the average joes out there, I guess a more commonly known part of the deep web is the Silk Road(a place where you can buy illegal drugs using bitcoins).
Now, as somebody that is mentally fragile, I did not have the guts to really even download the tor to go in. So all I could do was snoop around online and look for pieces of information from people that have actually been there, or other things related with it. To make a long story short, I regretted it. There were just so many disgusting and depraved things related that I continually felt nauseated and depressed for the upcoming day. Two of the most tramautizing things I read about was the Lolita slave girls and the online death show (which seems to have been proved to be false by reddit users, but there are other accounts of it so i dont doubt its existence). If you are interested just go online, but trust me this shit will leave you scarred, not even on the level of horror movies, or liveleak, this is just ....i dont even know how to decribe, it made me want to cry, feel gray and depressed. so many negative emotions...,
................................................
This expereince made me realize, that despite all the scary things in life, the really most horrific part is the depravity of the human mind. Evilness just does not seem to have limits, compared to the stuff on the dark web/shadow web(which are the coined terms for the darker elements of the deep web), ISIS seems like child play. Ironically, the scariest part of the whole encounter was how I became "addicted" to searching for more info on it. Despite the feeling of extreme disgust, I still kept on looking for more stories, more stuff, despite the guilt, I wanted to see more, to know more about just how low humans can think. Its an odd feeling, a disgusting feeling even. For those who do not have exceptionally strong moral standards and optmism, I also discourage you from seeking this topic, as this may not only tramautize you but lead you down a dark path.
For what its worth, you may say I am exaggerating, but truly, last night was one of those things that you wished had never happened. The point being that I didnt even access the web. Maybe I am just weak minded, but I also understand that this world needs more sun and good.
Im going to end it here before this turns into a preach.
Hope all is well,..