I'm in rehab bitches

[Joey Turnbuckle]

Been in detox since monday and start 28 days of rehab monday.

Not supposed to have phone but made friends with the nurses. Was able to order 3 large pizzas for everybody
and nurse chipped in by buying soda and cupcakes. Apparently nobody ever orders food here but I got them to let me.

Every breakfast is rice krispies/raisin brand. Hot lunch that's kid sized portion. And dinner is bagged lunch bologna sandwich. After I saw this 6'6 300lb+ dude rejected a 2nd portion at lunch because they said there isn't enough for everybody to have 2nds, I thought it was bullshit and decided I'm gonna just buy people food.


So what have you b-holes been up to?

[And1AllDay]

stay clean keep your head up mang :cheers:

hang in, hang tough bruh

[Lebron23]

Been in detox since monday and start 28 days of rehab monday.

Not supposed to have phone but made friends with the nurses. Was able to order 3 large pizzas for everybody
and nurse chipped in by buying soda and cupcakes. Apparently nobody ever orders food here but I got them to let me.

Every breakfast is rice krispies/raisin brand. Hot lunch that's kid sized portion. And dinner is bagged lunch bologna sandwich. After I saw this 6'6 300lb+ dude rejected a 2nd portion at lunch because they said there isn't enough for everybody to have 2nds, I thought it was bullshit and decided I'm gonna just buy people food.


So what have you b-holes been up to?

Are you an Alcoholic, or a Drug Addict??

[Axe]

Good lol

[SATAN]

I don't believe you but if it's true then good luck.

[Joey Turnbuckle]

stay clean keep your head up mang :cheers:

hang in, hang tough bruh

:cheers:

[Joey Turnbuckle]

Are you an Alcoholic, or a Drug Addict??

Alcoholic

I was diagnosed cirrhosis of the liver a year ago

[Joey Turnbuckle]

Good lol



Thank you. You should be scared, seeing as basically every time I've ever posted here I've been drunk and I was still smarter than you. Imagine how much smarter I am than you while totally clean. Not to mention, it allows me the ability to help people even more and support Trump even harder. I'm pretty sure you've never done anything for anyone, ever. You kinda suck ass.

[Joey Turnbuckle]

I don't believe you but if it's true then good luck.

Thanks.

Not sure what I'd get out of lying about it though. I've been beyond bored. There are like 4 kwkb channels and 4 PBS channels. Can't even go outside. It's seriously boring.

[SATAN]

Thank you. You should be scared, seeing as basically every time I've ever posted here I've been drunk and I was still smarter than you. Imagine how much smarter I am than you while totally clean. Not to mention, it allows me the ability to help people even more and support Trump even harder. I'm pretty sure you've never done anything for anyone, ever. You kinda suck ass.

:oldlol:

[8Ball]

Keep off the alcohol bro and stay clean. :applause:

That shit will kill your liver in excess.

How has it been the last 6 days so far since Monday craving wise?

[highwhey]

stay strong and sober OP.

one day at a time.

[Joey Turnbuckle]

Keep off the alcohol bro and stay clean. :applause:

That shit will kill your liver in excess.

How has it been the last 6 days so far since Monday craving wise?

I had already had serious withdrawal for 2 days before coming in, so only my first day here was truly awful. After that it wasn't too bad because of the adavant. I slept the first two days without leaving my room. It sucked when they didn't give me any adavant the other day but I'm doing alright now. In the main room we just watched AP Biology the past two days, so the laughs helped. And getting pizza for everyone today was an improvement from the previous days. 90% of commercials are alcohol though and every episode of ap bio seems to have people drinking. I've actually been craving a hit of ganja more than booze though.

[Joey Turnbuckle]

stay strong and sober OP.

one day at a time.

:cheers:

[Joey Turnbuckle]

Since I literally have nothing better to do than tear up pieces of paper lol....



https://i.ibb.co/PYmP5rn/20210626-230431.jpg

[Axe]

Thank you. You should be scared, seeing as basically every time I've ever posted here I've been drunk and I was still smarter than you. Imagine how much smarter I am than you while totally clean. Not to mention, it allows me the ability to help people even more and support Trump even harder. I'm pretty sure you've never done anything for anyone, ever. You kinda suck ass.
I'm not rrr3 though but you are still unhinged kenny boi.

[Joey Turnbuckle]

I'm not rrr3 though but you are still unhinged kenny boi.

Thank you.


Would you like to join me in my 5* hotel?


https://i.ibb.co/Vt9yDCq/20210626-233956.jpg



We can share a bed, I know you need a place to sleep, rrr3. This single room is actually considered nice compared to where I'm going Monday. Apparently that place is an old worn down shit hole and I'll have to share a room with 2 or 3 other guys. Good times to come!!

[Axe]

Thank you.


Would you like to join me in my 5* hotel?


https://i.ibb.co/Vt9yDCq/20210626-233956.jpg



We can share a bed, I know you need a place to sleep, rrr3. This single room is actually considered nice compared to where I'm going Monday. Apparently that place is an old worn down shit hole and I'll have to share a room with 2 or 3 other guys. Good times to come!!
Eh i'll see about that once covid is over.

[Joey Turnbuckle]

Eh i'll see about that once covid is over.



It's over as far as I can tell. We are supposed to wear masks outside our room but I pulled a band off the mask to make a hair tie and haven't worn one since. The nurse thought it was funny and offered me a hair tie but I said nah, my covid mask hair tie is good enough. I haven't worn a mask since and they haven't said anything. Everyone else has since stopped wearing their masks and the staff says absolutely nothing.

Now that covid is over, check out this huge shower we can share. We could probably fit like 3 other guys in the shower with us.

https://i.ibb.co/vqWyhDy/20210626-234947.jpg


And here is our shared toilet.

https://i.ibb.co/0CRVsCc/20210626-235050.jpg

[MrFonzworth]

Don't forget the 9th step:cheers:

First rounds on me when you're out:cheers:

[Axe]

It's over as far as I can tell. We are supposed to wear masks outside our room but I pulled a band off the mask to make a hair tie and haven't worn one since. The nurse thought it was funny and offered me a hair tie but I said nah, my covid mask hair tie is good enough. I haven't worn a mask since and they haven't said anything. Everyone else has since stopped wearing their masks and the staff says absolutely nothing.

Now that covid is over, check out this huge shower we can share. We could probably fit like 3 other guys in the shower with us.

https://i.ibb.co/vqWyhDy/20210626-234947.jpg


And here is our shared toilet.

https://i.ibb.co/0CRVsCc/20210626-235050.jpg
Out of curiosity, do you still root for the pacers nowadays?

[Joey Turnbuckle]

Don't forget the 9th step:cheers:

First rounds on me when you're out:cheers:

https://dworkins.com/media/catalog/product/cache/1/image/800x800/9df78eab33525d08d6e5fb8d27136e95/c/o/coke_vanilla_355ml_12ct_5.59_1.jpg

https://d3atagt0rnqk7k.cloudfront.net/wp-content/uploads/2017/08/16105047/how-to-corner-your-bowl-1280x800.jpg


:cheers:

[Joey Turnbuckle]

Out of curiosity, do you still root for the pacers nowadays?

Sure do.

And Astros, Titans, Volunteers.

I don't switch teams, cause I ain't gay. I would switch teams sexually, to be gay with you, though.

[Lebron23]

Aren't you Patrick Chewing??

[Joey Turnbuckle]

Aren't you Patrick Chewing??

No.

Ask kblaze, blade, fonzworth or whichever of those guys that can see the ip address of users. Chew has been here way longer than me and the mods can easily tell you that me and chew are not the same person. I literally only post using one username until i get banned and have to sign up for a new one.

Chew doesn't get banned. I've been banned quite a few times because I'm not a long time poster. I've only been posting here for like a year I think it's been now. Unless it's been 2 years... idk, time flies in my world because I'm always drunk.

[Axe]

Sure do.

And Astros, Titans, Volunteers.

I don't switch teams, cause I ain't gay. I would switch teams sexually, to be gay with you, though.
You're fcking crazy. That's why you get banned for being such a maniac lmao.

[Axe]

No.

Ask kblaze, blade, fonzworth or whichever of those guys that can see the ip address of users. Chew has been here way longer than me and the mods can easily tell you that me and chew are not the same person. I literally only post using one username until i get banned and have to sign up for a new one.

Chew doesn't get banned. I've been banned quite a few times because I'm not a long time poster. I've only been posting here for like a year I think it's been now. Unless it's been 2 years... idk, time flies in my world because I'm always drunk.
That depends if he's blurted out something deemed as racist, which he usually does.

[8Ball]

I had already had serious withdrawal for 2 days before coming in, so only my first day here was truly awful. After that it wasn't too bad because of the adavant. I slept the first two days without leaving my room. It sucked when they didn't give me any adavant the other day but I'm doing alright now. In the main room we just watched AP Biology the past two days, so the laughs helped. And getting pizza for everyone today was an improvement from the previous days. 90% of commercials are alcohol though and every episode of ap bio seems to have people drinking. I've actually been craving a hit of ganja more than booze though.

Hang in there bro.

Stay sober. Live a long life.

1 day at a time.

[Joey Turnbuckle]

Hang in there bro.

Stay sober. Live a long life.

1 day at a time.

Much love, brother.


The thing I'm struggling with most is that I'm used to drinking beer all day and now I'm wanting to constantly drink/eat and it's making me beyond nauseous. There is no alcohol in it to calm my stomach from feeling full and wanting to puke. We will see how the next 28 days go in rehab starting tomorrow. Nurses never took my phone back to lock up, so at least I have it for today. Going to be ass without for a month.

[Manny98]

Thank you. You should be scared, seeing as basically every time I've ever posted here I've been drunk and I was still smarter than you. Imagine how much smarter I am than you while totally clean. Not to mention, it allows me the ability to help people even more and support Trump even harder. I'm pretty sure you've never done anything for anyone, ever. You kinda suck ass.
:lol

[highwhey]

Much love, brother.


The thing I'm struggling with most is that I'm used to drinking beer all day and now I'm wanting to constantly drink/eat and it's making me beyond nauseous. There is no alcohol in it to calm my stomach from feeling full and wanting to puke. We will see how the next 28 days go in rehab starting tomorrow. Nurses never took my phone back to lock up, so at least I have it for today. Going to be ass without for a month.

drink mineral water like topo chico or perrier.

[Joey Turnbuckle]

drink mineral water like topo chico or perrier.

I'll try to get my aunt to drop some off. They only give us tap water, Gatorade, milk, coffee.

[Joey Turnbuckle]

You're fcking crazy. That's why you get banned for being such a maniac lmao.


Sure, bro. That, or welfarefan is a cry baby.


If you want to see a maniac, you should see this dude on the other side that's here for mental health problems, not drugs or alcohol. One second he is laughing and the next second he is screaming "g-d m-fer, sob, dont f'ing look at me, stupid b pissing me off cant speak english c-nt v". It's a meltdown every 5 min and reverts back to laughing. He is truly crazy. It's actually kinda sad.

[Norcaliblunt]

You’ll never get better eating like that. You need to pump your body full of nutrition. Green juice, raw eggs, raw organ meat smoothies and lots of coconut cream with fresh fruit. Then only you’ll be able to start to get your mind right.

[Axe]

Sure, bro. That, or welfarefan is a cry baby.


If you want to see a maniac, you should see this dude on the other side that's here for mental health problems, not drugs or alcohol. One second he is laughing and the next second he is screaming "g-d m-fer, sob, dont f'ing look at me, stupid b pissing me off cant speak english c-nt v". It's a meltdown every 5 min and reverts back to laughing. He is truly crazy. It's actually kinda sad.
Yikes. :roll:

[Spurs m8]

Good luck with it all!!

Not sure if this is your kind of thing or not...and maybe you already know all about it and have done it in the past...but I'll just put it out there...as I used to smoke a lot of weed (active stoner - still had good job, house, relationships, etc...just smoked too much) but needed a change and haven't touched it for 4 years since I changed my life...

But I replaced the weed with weights and healthy living and it was the best thing I ever did tbh
It's hard at the start, but after a couple of months when the first results start showing, and you go up a shirt size and the girls at work start to notice, the hard parts over.

Not only do you end up looking healthy and great, but you feel amazing too.
Plus it's been so interesting just learning about health and fitness, setting new fitness goals, as well as learning many amazing recipes and stuff too. Also took the mind off things at the start..kept me occupied.
After a couple of years of weights, I also took up running as well.

Could not recommend this lifestyle enough...Still love it now.
It's one that I never thought would interest me...but I was so wrong and wish I did it so much earlier.

Just my 2 cents...different things help different people.

I wish you all the best.

[Jasper]

Been in detox since monday and start 28 days of rehab monday.

Not supposed to have phone but made friends with the nurses. Was able to order 3 large pizzas for everybody
and nurse chipped in by buying soda and cupcakes. Apparently nobody ever orders food here but I got them to let me.

Every breakfast is rice krispies/raisin brand. Hot lunch that's kid sized portion. And dinner is bagged lunch bologna sandwich. After I saw this 6'6 300lb+ dude rejected a 2nd portion at lunch because they said there isn't enough for everybody to have 2nds, I thought it was bullshit and decided I'm gonna just buy people food.


So what have you b-holes been up to?

sounds like you are living the high life.

[Jasper]

But I replaced the weed with weights and healthy living and it was the best thing I ever did tbh

Not only do you end up looking healthy and great, but you feel amazing too.
.
10 4

[Joey Turnbuckle]

Good luck with it all!!

Not sure if this is your kind of thing or not...and maybe you already know all about it and have done it in the past...but I'll just put it out there...as I used to smoke a lot of weed (active stoner - still had good job, house, relationships, etc...just smoked too much) but needed a change and haven't touched it for 4 years since I changed my life...

But I replaced the weed with weights and healthy living and it was the best thing I ever did tbh
It's hard at the start, but after a couple of months when the first results start showing, and you go up a shirt size and the girls at work start to notice, the hard parts over.

Not only do you end up looking healthy and great, but you feel amazing too.
Plus it's been so interesting just learning about health and fitness, setting new fitness goals, as well as learning many amazing recipes and stuff too. Also took the mind off things at the start..kept me occupied.
After a couple of years of weights, I also took up running as well.

Could not recommend this lifestyle enough...Still love it now.
It's one that I never thought would interest me...but I was so wrong and wish I did it so much earlier.

Just my 2 cents...different things help different people.

I wish you all the best.

Thanks man. I asked if they had a workout area previously but they don't. Pushups, crunches and walking around it is.

[Joey Turnbuckle]

See y'all in 28 days. Pretty sure I won't be able to convince the people there to let me use my phone. The nurse that broke the rules so I could get people pizza and would get my phone out of the locker to use on occasion said they are way more strict at this other place. So much for keeping up with the news and sports even a little bit. Some of the people there are criminals that aren't there by choice but were given the option instead of jail, should be fun.... at least the huge 6'6 300lb dude is coming later in the day as well, so at least I'll know someone there. 28 days of no internet.... f me. At least I don't think I'll have internet. I suppose maybe they will have a computer to use? The dumbest thing about the no phone rule is only because of the camera. If that's the case, why not just set up a room just for cell phone use....

Anyways, I'm out. Chow for now!



https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5X192GJNq1s

[highwhey]

See y'all in 28 days. Pretty sure I won't be able to convince the people there to let me use my phone. The nurse that broke the rules so I could get people pizza and would get my phone out of the locker to use on occasion said they are way more strict at this other place. So much for keeping up with the news and sports even a little bit. Some of the people there are criminals that aren't there by choice but were given the option instead of jail, should be fun.... at least the huge 6'6 300lb dude is coming later in the day as well, so at least I'll know someone there. 28 days of no internet.... f me. At least I don't think I'll have internet. I suppose maybe they will have a computer to use? The dumbest thing about the no phone rule is only because of the camera. If that's the case, why not just set up a room just for cell phone use....

Anyways, I'm out. Chow for now!



https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5X192GJNq1s
You don’t have health insurance? They have some nice rehabs that are like 5 star resorts.

[Long Duck Dong]

https://youtu.be/Ghd2bkIadG4

Get it together. The singer of this band died yesterday of liver failure because of too much drinking :(

[hiphopanonymous]

Thank you. You should be scared, seeing as basically every time I've ever posted here I've been drunk and I was still smarter than you. Imagine how much smarter I am than you while totally clean. Not to mention, it allows me the ability to help people even more and support Trump even harder. I'm pretty sure you've never done anything for anyone, ever. You kinda suck ass.
Are you Kenneth?

[ArbitraryWater]

Thank you. You should be scared, seeing as basically every time I've ever posted here I've been drunk and I was still smarter than you. Imagine how much smarter I am than you while totally clean. Not to mention, it allows me the ability to help people even more and support Trump even harder. I'm pretty sure you've never done anything for anyone, ever. You kinda suck ass.

:oldlol:

[Joey Turnbuckle]

I had two phones when I came in monday and they didn't ask me to empty my pockets like the detox place even though it's the same company. They ****ed up... apparently they didn't think to check that my samsung charger that says samsung on it, doesn't go to my Huawei phone they took out of my bag. After flipping out on them the other day because this place sucks balls, insinuating while flipping out that I, and others have phones here. So they searched every room. Too stupid to find my phone but they found this old dick bags phone and promptly kicked his ass out. Unfortunately they took my charger and my phone has dropped from 93% to 78% in 4 days despite barely turning it on and turning it off. Anyways, there uis another old douchebag here that needs kicked to the curb but leaves Wednesday, but maybe I'll get him kicked out sooner too if he doesn't stop being clown shoes. 24 more days... gonna turn phone off before these a-holes do their multiple nightly checks without knocking through the night. Having a cell phone will get my ass kicked to the curb but these people aren't bright. When I asked if the 3 of them searching if they found the phone, she said not in my room. I replied I never said I meant me... she said she can't answer about other people. Later in the day they tossed the weirdo out and only I know why except the one friend here I told about. I better go before I stupidly get caught. This place sucks ass.

[scuzzy]

I had two phones when I came in monday and they didn't ask me to empty my pockets like the detox place even though it's the same company. They ****ed up... apparently they didn't think to check that my samsung charger that says samsung on it, doesn't go to my Huawei phone they took out of my bag. After flipping out on them the other day because this place sucks balls, insinuating while flipping out that I, and others have phones here. So they searched every room. Too stupid to find my phone but they found this old dick bags phone and promptly kicked his ass out. Unfortunately they took my charger and my phone has dropped from 93% to 78% in 4 days despite barely turning it on and turning it off. Anyways, there uis another old douchebag here that needs kicked to the curb but leaves Wednesday, but maybe I'll get him kicked out sooner too if he doesn't stop being clown shoes. 24 more days... gonna turn phone off before these a-holes do their multiple nightly checks without knocking through the night. Having a cell phone will get my ass kicked to the curb but these people aren't bright. When I asked if the 3 of them searching if they found the phone, she said not in my room. I replied I never said I meant me... she said she can't answer about other people. Later in the day they tossed the weirdo out and only I know why except the one friend here I told about. I better go before I stupidly get caught. This place sucks ass.
I've been there dude, just listen and be cool with the people who work their. It'll make life easier on you but right now you gotta be humble, not the tough cool guy or class clown. Get into sober living afterwards if you can

[Axe]

I had two phones when I came in monday and they didn't ask me to empty my pockets like the detox place even though it's the same company. They ****ed up... apparently they didn't think to check that my samsung charger that says samsung on it, doesn't go to my Huawei phone they took out of my bag. After flipping out on them the other day because this place sucks balls, insinuating while flipping out that I, and others have phones here. So they searched every room. Too stupid to find my phone but they found this old dick bags phone and promptly kicked his ass out. Unfortunately they took my charger and my phone has dropped from 93% to 78% in 4 days despite barely turning it on and turning it off. Anyways, there uis another old douchebag here that needs kicked to the curb but leaves Wednesday, but maybe I'll get him kicked out sooner too if he doesn't stop being clown shoes. 24 more days... gonna turn phone off before these a-holes do their multiple nightly checks without knocking through the night. Having a cell phone will get my ass kicked to the curb but these people aren't bright. When I asked if the 3 of them searching if they found the phone, she said not in my room. I replied I never said I meant me... she said she can't answer about other people. Later in the day they tossed the weirdo out and only I know why except the one friend here I told about. I better go before I stupidly get caught. This place sucks ass.
Poor thing.

[8Ball]

Hang in there Joey.

Read books if you can to pass the time.

Don't just stare at the wall in your thoughts, not good for you.

[Norcaliblunt]

You don’t sound like you’re taking this seriously. In fact you sound like a *******.

[Code Breaker]

Rehab is no joke. My older brother was in it for a serious drug addiction and now has been sober for almost 3 years. consistency and discipline is key.

[Joey Turnbuckle]

https://youtu.be/Ghd2bkIadG4

Get it together. The singer of this band died yesterday of liver failure because of too much drinking :(

He died??? That's sebastian Bach, right?

Damn...

[Joey Turnbuckle]

You don’t sound like you’re taking this seriously. In fact you sound like a *******.

Read your post history and get back to me about what it's like being an asshole.


We are paying to be here, voluntarily and they didnt even give us milk for a week. Only coffee and water unless you pay 2.00 for a 20oz soda or 1.50 for a candy bar if you want chocolate. My big friend here was hungry and they throw all the left overs in the trash after a day or two anyways, and when I asked the one chick if he could have done left over food she just said nope. Yeah... I'm the asshole. Are you retarded or something?

You have no clue how ****ed up this place is. 4 employees just quit because this place is so horrible to the patients. One that quit runs the place and the other was 1 of only 3 counselors that work here.

Without paying customers, these people don't even have jobs anymore. They are down to 7 ****ing patients but have like 5-7 employees here all day and 3 all night 24/7. This place is probably f*cked going forward. It's pretty close to being in jail.

[Joey Turnbuckle]

Hang in there Joey.

Read books if you can to pass the time.

Don't just stare at the wall in your thoughts, not good for you.

I just do what is asked and have been contributing in meetings because soon me and two other guys will he the only ones left to help the new comers adapt. Two leave wednesday. Another next Friday and another next Sunday. Me and the other two guys still have 23 and 24 days left. We have only been here 4 and 5 days... they can't even bring in new people cause half the staff is quitting at the exact same time. It's not a coincidence. They got a new boss and the employees are straight up outta here.

I'm trying. Friend is supposed to be dropping off Sudoku so I have something to do since there isn't crap to do in the little spare time they give you.

[Joey Turnbuckle]

Rehab is no joke. My older brother was in it for a serious drug addiction and now has been sober for almost 3 years. consistency and discipline is key.

Appreciate the input. I've actually started trying because I know it's up to me and the other two guys going forward to help keep meetings normal if/when they get new people. I had planned to just keep my head down but kinda have no choice, otherwise this place will be a total mess when the veterans leave. So trying to learn as much as I can to help the others that end up here.

[Axe]

Rehab is no joke. My older brother was in it for a serious drug addiction and now has been sober for almost 3 years. consistency and discipline is key.
Had an uncle who spent more than a decade staying there until he perished after suffering a heart attack.

[Norcaliblunt]

Read your post history and get back to me about what it's like being an asshole.


We are paying to be here, voluntarily and they didnt even give us milk for a week. Only coffee and water unless you pay 2.00 for a 20oz soda or 1.50 for a candy bar if you want chocolate. My big friend here was hungry and they throw all the left overs in the trash after a day or two anyways, and when I asked the one chick if he could have done left over food she just said nope. Yeah... I'm the asshole. Are you retarded or something?

You have no clue how ****ed up this place is. 4 employees just quit because this place is so horrible to the patients. One that quit runs the place and the other was 1 of only 3 counselors that work here.

Without paying customers, these people don't even have jobs anymore. They are down to 7 ****ing patients but have like 5-7 employees here all day and 3 all night 24/7. This place is probably f*cked going forward. It's pretty close to being in jail.

Dude you seem intelligent, so why the hell would you go about treating your problem the stupidest way possible? Ditch the “rehab” and pump yourself full of nutrition. You’re over here talking about eating pizza and thinking you’ll get better. Lol. Take this shit serious and get healthy. You’re mental health is only as good as your physical health.

[Joey Turnbuckle]

Dude you seem intelligent, so why the hell would you go about treating your problem the stupidest way possible? Ditch the “rehab” and pump yourself full of nutrition. You’re over here talking about eating pizza and thinking you’ll get better. Lol. Take this shit serious and get healthy. You’re mental health is only as good as your physical health.

I was drinking 20-30 beers a day which are 200 calories apiece or 3/4 of 1.5 liter bottles of vodka... while eating garbage food. Drinking mostly water here because I've only bought like 3 sodas. Normally when I try to quit drinking I end up drinking tons of vanilla coke, so this has been healthier in that regard at least. We have had chicken breasts three times already, which is what I mostly lived on when I was really healthy. I put down I won't eat pork for religious reasons so I get a lot of special meals that are chicken. I'm not sure I really care about not eating pork for religious reasons anymore but I've only had it like 10 times in the last 15 years. Not sure why I decided Muslims/Jews were right about not eating pork. At least they give me healthier stuff everytime they send pork over for the group.

I'm mostly sticking it out because the friend here wants me to and also, I'm not sure what this place will look if it's all new comers with no one to help them at the start. The amount of rules are pretty intense. We have to do 4 bug packets(1 a week) to share which they have to sign off on and I already finished/shared my 2nd packet today in day 6 of being here. I only missed one meeting the 1st day. It was the first part of demi lovato being a lying drug addict sociopath. I saw the 2nd part and uh... well, this place is interesting. A bunch of lesbians and one of the counselors is transgender that's gone through the sex change.

I don't know how much they are 'teaching' us that would stop me from drinking but it's keeping from drinking at least for now. The more detoxed I am, the easier it will be to not drink again. I mean, if I keep drinking, I'll die. Hearing that slowed me down a couple times but I ultimately went back. To me it's kind of like I have to just decide to stop or not, and I really don't that this stuff here will make a difference.

We did watch Flight today and at the end when Denzel us clean, admitting the truth knowing he us going to prison... then his son visits him telling his dad he wants to get to know him and us writing a paper for college about the most fascinating person he has never met... I actually had a tear. That got me a bit.

We'll see how it goes. Everyday gets easier as i get used to the routine but i was pretty pissed at first. I was ready to walk the 2nd-3rd day and made it known. I'll stick it out for now. My brother won't get the **** out of my house, so I'd rather not be at home right now anyways. He has never drank or done drugs but has serious mental problems. He leaves the house like 4 times a year. This gives me more time to figure out what I want to do. Beats getting drunk, and once and for all beating the shit out of my brother. Dude has called the cops on me 7 times in like 6 months. So, yeah... I'll see how this goes.

My phone is down to 66% and I have no charger for the remainder of my time here. I turn it on like once a day yo check news and post here a couple times. I love this forum, it's a great outlet.

[8Ball]

Do you work out?


Maybe you can channel your obsession into working out for a change.


The mind can wonder and think about doing unhealthy things, but if you force a good habit into yourself you can change the way your mind produces thoughts.

[Chick Stern]

He died??? That's sebastian Bach, right?

Damn...
Not Bach. The replacement guy.

[Joey Turnbuckle]

Do you work out?


Maybe you can channel your obsession into working out for a change.


The mind can wonder and think about doing unhealthy things, but if you force a good habit into yourself you can change the way your mind produces thoughts.


Used to, but I had a spinal cord injury that almost left me fully paralyzed below the waist, never fully healed, so I can't run or walk far distances like i used to, i actually wear leg braces. I would still be lifting weights except about a year ago while wasted I was beyond drunk and tripped/ stumbled and while I was trying to catch the chair with my arms fully extended just missed catching the seat of the chair and planted my fully extended arms into the floor and the muscle and shoulder in my right are still totally messed up. It's a shit sandwich.

Adding to the shit sandwich and thoughts/mind, today I thought of my last ex girlfriend and I wanted to cry, still do. I don't usually get too sad anymore about it anymore because I'm always drunk. If I wasn't here, I would have went gotten beer. I woulda tried smoking some weed first, but it wouldn't have helped I doubt. My first girlfriend and last girlfriend were the best, the middle ones were never going to last, but the other two would have if I wasn't stupid and ****ed it up. I swore off dating after my last breakup and went mgtow. Having to suffer through this is torture. My last girlfriend was perfect in every way but I had been drunk everyday for the past 15 years prior to dating here, and continued while dating here for over 2 years. This is the type of feeling people commit suicide over I'm pretty sure. :(

I was doing good the last few days. F*ck me... :,(

[Axe]

Used to, but I had a spinal cord injury that almost left me fully paralyzed below the waist, never fully healed, so I can't run or walk far distances like i used to, i actually wear leg braces. I would still be lifting weights except about a year ago while wasted I was beyond drunk and tripped/ stumbled and while I was trying to catch the chair with my arms fully extended just missed catching the seat of the chair and planted my fully extended arms into the floor and the muscle and shoulder in my right are still totally messed up. It's a shit sandwich.

Adding to the shit sandwich and thoughts/mind, today I thought of my last ex girlfriend and I wanted to cry, still do. I don't usually get too sad anymore about it anymore because I'm always drunk. If I wasn't here, I would have went gotten beer. I woulda tried smoking some weed first, but it wouldn't have helped I doubt. My first girlfriend and last girlfriend were the best, the middle ones were never going to last, but the other two would have if I wasn't stupid and ****ed it up. I swore off dating after my last breakup and went mgtow. Having to suffer through this is torture. My last girlfriend was perfect in every way but I had been drunk everyday for the past 15 years prior to dating here, and continued while dating here for over 2 years. This is the type of feeling people commit suicide over I'm pretty sure. :(

I was doing good the last few days. F*ck me... :,(
Out of curiosity, how old are you kenny?

[Joey Turnbuckle]

Just when you think you're out, they pull you back in.


Oh man.... this place is a total train wreck. No dude came the other night and left within 2 hours. Dude that came here last tuesday bolted in middle of the day. Tomorrow is last day for 2 people. Then Friday for 1. Then Sunday for another. Leaving me and my friend from detox as the only 2 people left if nobody else comes.

I previously mentioned 4 employees up and quit at the same time after new rules and being under new control. This place is a legit mess. Like 15 employees or more and all but 1 are women, unless you count the trans dude turned female that's a counselor. Yeah... a mentally I'll counselor... makes sense. Tall and thick like a man, smells like a man when sweating. Most of the people running the place are fresh out of college. It's beyond insane.

I pretty much have to stick it out, but yeah, the rules here are f***ed and the place is poorly run. Constantly starting meetings late or being cancelled, yet we have to follow absurd rules and be on time. The one bitch is playing on her phone 24/7.

Would be funny if my friend and I left also, leaving them with nobody. Being 'taught' and controlled by a bunch of democratic communist kids on a power trip that don't know shit. This place is a legit dumpster fire.

[Joey Turnbuckle]

Things are heating up on here.

We were down to 4 with 1 leaving first thing in the morning and a 2nd leaving first thing sunday morning. Leaving only me an 6'4 dude that is former triple A ball player when he was 19 but gave it up after having kids.

Two people supposed to come today but only 1 came, and 2 supposed to come tomorrow. Cop was here this morning and we see the new guy... at least 6'8, in shape big and in shape. We see them taking stuff out of his bags to check and dude has a pair of brass knuckles and a rope. My friend asked him how it's going in the halls when passing and dude just ignored him. We're thinking "oh, great. This dude could probably take us both". He sat down by me at lunch and shook hands trading names. While eating mentioned it's hard to swallow because of cracked sternum. Probably from being tackled by cops or something, ha. He seems alright for now, but his arrival was pretty sketchy. Will keep ya'll posted if I, or someone here catches a beating. The cracked sternum is a relief though because my friend and I could take him if he happens to go crazy.

[SATAN]

Haha, yeah man.

[Orange_Cassidy]

Out of curiosity, how old are you kenny?

I dont think that's ken. never seen him use smileys

[Joey Turnbuckle]

New dude told my friend he can't go on morning nature walk tomorrow because someone slashed his achilles with a knife and that his cracked sternum was from getting punched in the chest with brass knuckles.... then said he is thinking about whether or not he is going to kill that guy. He also seems to be slow mentally and has low deep monotone voice. Legit sounds like a neanderthal. Luckily I told him where all the extra food is, so I don't think he will rage on me. He is also wearing black combat boots with camo pants and has long hair, but I also have long hair and huge beard, so I guess that doesn't mean much. Really sketchy dude and is definitely here because he has to be, not because he wants to be.

Will be interesting seeing this guy interact with our tranny counselor that's a tranny and our other counselor that's a tiny scrawny dude. Only counselors left, so they had to use an outpatient counselor for our last meeting. Also can't wait to see him interact with all the tiny RA lesbians that work here, trying to tell him he basically isn't allowed to do anything. My friend asked him how tall he is and it turned out to be 6'8.

So, yeah... hm... friday will only be my 12 day here, meaning I'll have to be around this dude for 16 more days. On the 28th day, I'm leaving immediately in the morning. The fact my friend and I are going to be the longest tenured people here after being here less than half the time we are going to be here, while everyone else is brand new... this place is ****ed.

[Joey Turnbuckle]

Out of curiosity, how old are you kenny?

35

[Axe]

I dont think that's ken. never seen him use smileys
Thank you for the insight, kenneth.

[Joey Turnbuckle]

Smh....

Dims think I have multiple usernames. That I'm lying about being in rehab and making crap up. At the risk of getting caught while wasting battery...

https://i.ibb.co/Lh4q7CR/20210709-063727.jpg

https://i.ibb.co/pj08144/20210709-064814.jpg

https://i.ibb.co/sP7fPkj/20210709-062943.jpg




If I'm not in rehab, where am I?

And whose leg braces are those?

The Dim problem is becoming more clear by the day. You are easily manipulated with lies and bullshit by your own party, and in turn believe conservatives are lying to you. You fruitloops are all mixed up.

The conservatives on this board don't lie because they have no reason to. The easily manipulated Dims on the other hand....


Johnny Lawerence: "Get your house in order LaRusso(Dimwits)"

LaRusso(Dimwits): "Who do you think you're talking to??"

Johnny Lawerence: a bunch of brainwashed sissy nerds.

Not quoted because he didn't say that last line, but it's clear what conservatives are dealing with. A bunch of unfunny miserable people that believe every lie their party tells them and can't accept the reality because of it. They can't except the reality that they go around lying everyday, while being lied to by their own people and that conservatives are honorable people that tell the truth, as well as help others.

This dump is what democrat government money looks like when they actually give it to establishments instead of just pocketing it. The vacuum is literally from 1980 or 1970. They fix everything around here by putting a piece of would under it, nail a piece if wood to it, duct tape and tinfoil.

Truly amazing. If this isn't a reminder to never drink again, there ain't no scaring a person straight. The only step below this place is jail/prison.

Always remember that facts dont care about your feelings. And unlike Dims, conservatives can actually back their facts up. Best of luck to you in absorbing whatever dimwit propaganda you're fed today. You can absorb all of it, I believe in you!

[Jasper]

Axe u sure have a lot of pic's from rehab:milton

[8Ball]

How are the cravings right now 12 days in?

[Axe]

Axe u sure have a lot of pic's from rehab:milton
Huh?:wtf:

[Joey Turnbuckle]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TZI5cAV0BOo


Guy I became friends with here gave me his clock radio so I can listen to music in my room, before he leaves tomorrow. Also coming back to get his stuff before leaving the city tomorrow and dropping me off a phone charger. I did 7 days of detox and tomorrow will be 14th day in rehab of the 28, so I have 2 weeks left. Worth the risk of getting kicked out to have charger for phone I guess. Down to 21%

[Joey Turnbuckle]

It's official that these people aren't very bright. Was worth 25 bucks.

https://i.ibb.co/SrpttPy/20210711-223331.jpg

We knew they weren't letting him back in the building when he came back to pick up his stuff, him and I were still able to get it in the building.

Found out the head RA is 20 and another RA told us that she is 20 as well.

Pretty f*cked up that this place is run by a bunch of 20 year old progressive chicks that have no idea what the f they are doing.

I also got around the internet being blocked on the smart tv so we can use the browser to watch whatever we want on primewire. All of the tv apps like netflix and hulu are blocked but primewire is way better anyways because it has every single movie and tv shows. These people are clueless, as well as inept.

[highwhey]

It's official that these people aren't very bright. Was worth 25 bucks.

https://i.ibb.co/SrpttPy/20210711-223331.jpg

We knew they weren't letting him back in the building when he came back to pick up his stuff, him and I were still able to get it in the building.

Found out the head RA is 20 and another RA told us that she is 20 as well.

Pretty f*cked up that this place is run by a bunch of 20 year old progressive chicks that have no idea what the f they are doing.

I also got around the internet being blocked on the smart tv so we can use the browser to watch whatever we want on primewire. All of the tv apps like netflix and hulu are blocked but primewire is way better anyways because it has every single movie and tv shows. These people are clueless, as well as inept.

:oldlol: as someone who is just getting out of alcohol detox, you need to stop with the shenanigans bro. if you don't take it seriously, it's highly likely you will relapse and be back there. don't try to scheme the system, you're just scheming yourself out of sobriety. all the little rules that you think you are exploting is all the same shit that leads you back to drinking.

if you have the money, there are some pretty damn nice in patient rehabs. the detox facility i went to allowed me to have my phone, but they were like the only one in the state, all the other ones said no. i think rehab is different because they want you completely cutoff from the world. the reasoning is that going back to your old environment fresh out of detox will just lead you back to drinking. hence the "rehab" name.

take it for what it is man.

[rawimpact]

Meanwhile wheyfats detox center

https://storage.googleapis.com/afs-prod/media/45d91399899f475982c72c3a0fe196b0/800.jpeg

[highwhey]

self hate projected onto others ^^^

i feel more sorry for you than i do for myself, and i'm an addict.

[rawimpact]

self hate projected onto others ^^^

i feel more sorry for you than i do for myself, and i'm an addict.

another weekend spent on ISH... as an addict with no friends

quite the life...

[Long Duck Dong]

How's the battery life atm? :milton

[Joey Turnbuckle]

:oldlol: as someone who is just getting out of alcohol detox, you need to stop with the shenanigans bro. if you don't take it seriously, it's highly likely you will relapse and be back there. don't try to scheme the system, you're just scheming yourself out of sobriety. all the little rules that you think you are exploting is all the same shit that leads you back to drinking.

if you have the money, there are some pretty damn nice in patient rehabs. the detox facility i went to allowed me to have my phone, but they were like the only one in the state, all the other ones said no. i think rehab is different because they want you completely cutoff from the world. the reasoning is that going back to your old environment fresh out of detox will just lead you back to drinking. hence the "rehab" name.

take it for what it is man.

I hear ya man. The one guy that came back to detox a 2nd time after I had already left ended up coming here, so he still has like 25 days left now to my 12 or 13, I kinda lost track. But he went to Betty Ford and it was 75k for a month, and he already has a list of how unstructured this place is. Counselors and RA's are both consistently showing up late to start meetings and canceling them. Our doors to rooms are locked from 7am to 4:30pm though, so we are left with nothing to do but watch tv. During breaks, one of the RA's has to go out with us but they cancel it regularly because they are too busy on their phones. We have designated med times, not as needed like it should be, seeing as they sit at the front desk doing nothing but messing around on their phone. So naturally, they are always late on opening the med doors. They make us follow some if the most insane rules, making up new rules to enforce just for the sake of having to do less. The head RA found about how I got around the tv not having internet and she said forget we had this conversation and let it go because I pointed out they aren't even allowed to have and use their phones here either but they don't hold their fellow 20 year old democrat lgbqt employees accountable. They have papers to file grievances against them, so they need to cool it because we have a bunch of new guys that are already back talking them and these guys have a violent history and are full of rage. Not to mention the one guy that knows how an actual good rehab is run and it's completely opposite of this place. He is pussed about the lack of structure here and also, over at betty ford the have different phases that give you more freedom each week if you follow the rules. Like being allowed in your room. Going outside on your own. Eventually you can leave the place entirely but you just have to take a breathalyzer/urine test.

It is what it is, I'm doing fine here, but some of these other guys that will be here for 2 weeks after I'm gone will be the longest tenured people here, and they have serious rage issues, as well as schizophrenia. Luckily I'm on their good side and can help talk em down, but the one guy I'm not sure what he is capable of. Only 3 of us were in the room when he finally shared more than he had already shared to me 1 on 1 and it was pretty out there. The RA is a tiny 22yr old chick that isn't educated in counseling and she kept mentioning she thinks the one counselor is still here because she was in fear of what might happen. Dude was like, let me go get my license, it's also a knife and he comes back with it loolololol.

This place is literally all under 25 chicks that are barely over 5 ft and weigh 100lbs. So they gave zero protection other than other patients that are all male now, on top of being poorly trained in general. We have 6'4 guy, 6'5 guy and 6'8 guy. Fortunately I'm friends with all of them, especially the 6'4 and guy 6'5 guy. The 6'8 guy might suffer from schizophrenia and is the one that brought in brass knuckles, a rope and they said the hospital or cops that brought him here took his gun. Dude emotionally is a loose cannon. We shall see how the next 12 or whatever days left goes. I'm over 20 days sober now, so I'm not too worried about falling back into drinking again. My liver can't take it anymore, but I guess that doesn't necessarily mean I won't fall back into drinking. If the either of my 2 friends here didn't want me to stay, I might have already left. It's gotten pretty entertaining though. The one dude from detox that came back and I find everything hilarious. He is the one that wants structure though and has a kid with a rare illness/disability, so he is here girls the right reasons and that has helped me. I burned through my requirements and am detoxed, so I have continued contributing in meetings because I know it's helping him. Currently, I feel pretty good about where I am at. As long as I don't drink, I won't fall back into drinking. I only fall back into drinking after I've started because waking up after passing out feels miserable and a little is never enough. It's all or nothing for when it comes to drinking, I hate the taste of alcohol and would rather drink something that taste good instead of drinking, if I'm not drinking to get drunk. Plus, I will still have weed, I don't know that I'll give that up.

[Joey Turnbuckle]

How's the battery life atm? :milton

Was below 15% but I have a charger now so it's all good going forward. I can again read the freakin news now to see all the dumb ass shit that's being spouted in the news. Local news here is covid, condo, kid died at amusement park, a bunch BLM nonsense, rich fuvk yards going to the edge of space. They repeat this same shit every morning on ABC news for weeks now.

[Joey Turnbuckle]

8 days left.

Technically 9, but everyone leaves first thing in the morning on the 28th day if they have a car or a ride. Maybe I'll catch a church service since it will be Sunday(25th).

More likely scenario, I'll smoke weed and play with my pets before passing out in my bed. So much crap has happened over the last week in here, and I'm ready to go home. Going to be the longest 8 days I can recall. I've hit the wall and am ready to get back to life. 35 days in a building with that week of detox surrounded by people constantly and next to no entertainment is starting to outweigh any benefits left of staying here. At least I have a phone(and charger now)with internet, that barely works in this building. Better than what the others have though.

I got to leave and have them take me to the doctor today. Medic working there said he had to quit because of how poorly they treat the patients here and how poorly the place was run in general. I told him some of the recent changes and he was beyond appalled. He already said they didn't treat patients like humans and depriving patients of any fun or happiness was what made him quit without notice, just make phone call saying he isn't coming in the day he quit. When I told him they lock us out of our rooms all day now and are taking away the couple decent snacks they had for future people when they run out of what's left.... he said "and to think this is a facility that has operated this way for 20 years now. All they care about is making money".

[highwhey]

8 days left.

Technically 9, but everyone leaves first thing in the morning on the 28th day if they have a car or a ride. Maybe I'll catch a church service since it will be Sunday(25th).

More likely scenario, I'll smoke weed and play with my pets before passing out in my bed. So much crap has happened over the last week in here, and I'm ready to go home. Going to be the longest 8 days I can recall. I've hit the wall and am ready to get back to life. 35 days in a building with that week of detox surrounded by people constantly and next to no entertainment is starting to outweigh any benefits left of staying here. At least I have a phone(and charger now)with internet, that barely works in this building. Better than what the others have though.

I got to leave and have them take me to the doctor today. Medic working there said he had to quit because of how poorly they treat the patients here and how poorly the place was run in general. I told him some of the recent changes and he was beyond appalled. He already said they didn't treat patients like humans and depriving patients of any fun or happiness was what made him quit without notice, just make phone call saying he isn't coming in the day he quit. When I told him they lock us out of our rooms all day now and are taking away the couple decent snacks they had for future people when they run out of what's left.... he said "and to think this is a facility that has operated this way for 20 years now. All they care about is making money".

hang in there bro. but i would be careful with using any other substances when you arrive home...everyone is different i guess, i've read about people successfully maintaining sobriety from alcohol by smoking weed, but imo it's just going to facilitate cravings. my therapist unofficially recommended i smoke weed, but i already know where that's gonna lead to.

you got this. i was going to insert that emoji, but it's literally an emoji with beer mugs :facepalm

[Joey Turnbuckle]

hang in there bro. but i would be careful with using any other substances when you arrive home...everyone is different i guess, i've read about people successfully maintaining sobriety from alcohol by smoking weed, but imo it's just going to facilitate cravings. my therapist unofficially recommended i smoke weed, but i already know where that's gonna lead to.

you got this. i was going to insert that emoji, but it's literally an emoji with beer mugs :facepalm

You may be right. Sometimes are easy because I constantly joke and make everybody laugh, but that's a temporary high. Luckily I'm good at making myself laugh in just about anything I see, but not everyday can be like that. I've definitely had moments here where I don't want to be sober and think of other stuff I can use that won't really mess with my liver, but that us definitely a slippery slope because I'm not just an alcoholic, I have an addictive personality in general it was weed before alcohol until I got a dui for weed and had a probation officer that I had to drop for which is what turned me to alcohol. And for quite a while I really had no idea where to get weed from since I didnt drive following my accident and all my friends had moved out of the small town we grew up in. For a while I got into pain killers getting 200 10mg at a time for bucks because the person didn't know their actual value, plus selling to me was no risk. When they ran out(or so they said anyways, not sure if true) I was addicted at that point. I would take 5 or 6 at a time a all throughout the day just trying to be smart about it spreading it out knowing I shouldn't overdose or die but also playing with fire and the toxicity level. Weed, booze, pain killers, food, sex... anything can be addictive for me, even running, lifting weights, eating healthy was once a addiction. Even got hgh and steroids to enhance the process, and the reason behind doing it was to get attractive chicks. The painkillers and steroids are probably a big part of helping **** my liver up since a lot of dudes here drank like I did but their liver isn't messed up. Then again, I think they had breaks from it while at work or at least drank just enough to feel normal while working, and drank water probably. I was drinking nonstop and beer was my water in between vodka or whatever else.

As of now, I would still smoke weed, do shrooms if I came across them and I'd have a hard time turning to xtasy. I know I can drink, use pain killers, coke or whatever else. Fortunately I only did all sorts of drugs when I was younger and got away from them. I've been wanting to do a couple whipits when I get out, but who knows. Joe Rogan constantly talks about DMT but I know little about it or if it's bad for your liver? Only bad thing at the moment is even thinking about alternatives because I'm doing pretty good, so I'll stop thinking about it until the moment comes when I might really want to cross that bridge. At least I'm committed to saving my liver and the desire to live. If that ends up being the best I can do in the moment, it's at least better than drinking/popping/snorting poison.

I just hope I can keep my sense of humor and find away to get involved with writing on tv shows or just flat out write my own scripts to pitch and maybe that gets me in the door. I live in the midwest, so I'm not sure how to go about getting hired as a writer without moving. Maybe with covid and doing things from home using zoom/email is a more viable option. I have money and haven't really had to work much in my life, so it would be nice to finally "work". Comedy and joking isn't work to me though, it's what I enjoy more than anything. It's a natural high that gets me by and being around people constantly has helped me keep it going, whereas normally trying to get sober I'm alone, don't want to interact and don't really find anything funny or enjoyable.

Lol about the emojis. Just pretend it's A&W root beer. That's good stuff and taste way better than beer anyways.

[Joey Turnbuckle]

Also...

I had my "graduation" and got my coin/chip or whatever.

https://i.ibb.co/xzkHKCL/20210721-220224.jpg


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hxADTEJalRw



Two guys were here to speak tonight and it's what solidified that I'm done with drinking. I probably won't go to more than one AA meeting a week or a couple times a month, hearing them speak was good and they will be at the meetings. IThe guys in rehab with me aren't from this area and I've been back n' forth on going to meetings at all after this. I can do 3 hours of outpatient here 3 times a week but I doubt I'll do it, even though the counselor they have me going to ufbi decide to is really cool. You have to go three times a week though, can't just be one or two, and that just seems like too much. I should probably try it for a week or at least a meeting before I reject it without giving it a chance.

I also realized I should write some acknowledgements for some of the staff before I leave, but realized it's kind of harsh to leave out the others. And then realized I need to write one for the guys with me here, which now becomes like 20 f'ing acknowledgements. I haven't done any while here and most people here haven't gotten any, or only gotten one, while I've gotten quite a few for some reason. Probably get more since everyone was asking me for my number before I leave. I'll just leave them all the day I leave I guess, I don't think they'll expect that. Hopefully it will be added encouragement to stay or just make their day better even it's just for a moment. The group is what keeps each other up, there aren't a lot of positives around here outside of each other. Most of the acknowledgements I've gotten were constantly making people laugh, finding ways to have fun and helping everyone because they are all still have like 18 or more days left except my friend from detox that's been here the whole time with me, but he is shy and doesn't speak a lot. This place definitely helped me become more outgoing, especially sober without drinking.

[highwhey]

Also...

I had my "graduation" and got my coin/chip or whatever.

https://i.ibb.co/xzkHKCL/20210721-220224.jpg


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hxADTEJalRw



Two guys were here to speak tonight and it's what solidified that I'm done with drinking. I probably won't go to more than one AA meeting a week or a couple times a month, hearing them speak was good and they will be at the meetings. IThe guys in rehab with me aren't from this area and I've been back n' forth on going to meetings at all after this. I can do 3 hours of outpatient here 3 times a week but I doubt I'll do it, even though the counselor they have me going to ufbi decide to is really cool. You have to go three times a week though, can't just be one or two, and that just seems like too much. I should probably try it for a week or at least a meeting before I reject it without giving it a chance.

I also realized I should write some acknowledgements for some of the staff before I leave, but realized it's kind of harsh to leave out the others. And then realized I need to write one for the guys with me here, which now becomes like 20 f'ing acknowledgements. I haven't done any while here and most people here haven't gotten any, or only gotten one, while I've gotten quite a few for some reason. Probably get more since everyone was asking me for my number before I leave. I'll just leave them all the day I leave I guess, I don't think they'll expect that. Hopefully it will be added encouragement to stay or just make their day better even it's just for a moment. The group is what keeps each other up, there aren't a lot of positives around here outside of each other. Most of the acknowledgements I've gotten were constantly making people laugh, finding ways to have fun and helping everyone because they are all still have like 18 or more days left except my friend from detox that's been here the whole time with me, but he is shy and doesn't speak a lot. This place definitely helped me become more outgoing, especially sober without drinking.

:dancin:applause:

you got this bro. take a walk around the neighborhood if you have cravings. they only last a couple minutes remember that, do something to get your mind off it.