I went through something similar back in high school.So I feel your pain.One of my good homies handed me a CD to help me get through it.The CD he handed me changed things for the better.It made me look at the whole situation from a different perspective.
But anyways,here's a couple songs from that CD.
This song described everything I was feeling.
How Will I laugh Tomorrow When I Cant Even Smile Today
GOOD LUCK And ENJOY.