Man. On the outside, you would think I'm this young happy 22 yr old who has his life ahead on him. about to graduate college, already working at a hospital making 48-50K a year(Not job I went to school for)
Driving a bmw, pretty good looking, Good family, etc.
But for some odd reason, I never am, truly, "HAPPY".
YEAH, I have problems, like everyone else. But no matter how hard i try to say and preach to and be more "positive, be optimistic, enjoy life ", the less I actually am.
Throughout my whole life, I've had problems. For one reason or another, shit just always depressed me. Everyday it's a struggle to feel "happy".
Idk, it doesnt make sense to me and it isnt clear but I'm just always unhappy and uneasy. Something is always bothering me, and im always thinking about some shit i shouldnt be thinking about.
The only time I dont, or feel happy is when im drinking or ive taken like 8 pain killers. (Hydrocodone)