So I have cirrhosis of the liver now...

[Smoke117]

I've been in and out of the hospital because of my drinking all year long. I just got out monday this last time because I called the cops thinking this man and girl were trying to kill me at my house. I was hallucinating and I know that for sure now as when I was admitted I was still seeing things outside the window like evil creatures and asked my "roommate" if he saw them too and he said no and don't tell anyone that shit because they'll put you in the padded rooms. I was going through delirium tremens which is the most severe form of alcohol withdrawal. Before that a month earlier I was in the hospital and then a care center for 21 days. My mom came over and found me pretty much half dead just staring into space mildly mumbling. I have no memory of this, but I spent a week in the ICU because of acute liver failure. I have all these bad memories of the hospital, but it was apparently hallucinations because it doesn't match up with what my mom tells me. My doctor told me point blank: If you drink anymore you will die. My plan is to go to rehab next week. I already started the process. I've detoxed now and I have a librium (it's a mild benzo that's mainly used for alcohol detox) prescription to keep any withdrawal and anxiety away in the meantime. I'm seeing a hepatologist (liver specialist) tomorrow as a follow up from the hospital. I dunno if he might want to do a liver biopsy or something to rule out liver cancer. When you have cirrhosis you are 40 more times to get liver cancer than a normal person and I already have bad genes from my fathers side as far as cancer goes. I'm hoping the rehab thing works out as I'm only 37 and I would like to see 40 and beyond.

[warriorfan]

[MrFonzworth]

Meltdown

[Smoke117]

Not really surprised by the responses so far. A board full of scumbags are going to be scummy. Crack heads for sure, obviously.

[Smoke117]

Yeah my liver sucks now, but you were born and always have been a halfwit. The crack actually probably did you some good being a stimulant considering you're just shy of a retard naturally.

[Loco 50]

Smoke, I like you dude. You're one of the few here that can talk 90s ball, not that that means f all, but yeah. I'm sure you've got folks that care about your well-being and want to see you do well. You just have to believe it yourself.

I hope you can start to take better care of yourself and start working with a therapist on sorting your shit out.

Hoping for the best for your test results.

Try to take care of yourself and find some peace.

[Kenny Griffin]

Karma for making fun of a 9 year old girls birth defect.


rest in piss OP


btw i can return because the test came back negative. it wasn't my kid LOL

[Doomsday Dallas]

My plan is to go to rehab next week. I already started the process.

But advice I can give you: Just focus on this next pass and forget everything else.










I mean really the main thing you need to take away from AA/Rehab is this: One Day At A Time.

If you can do that, you'll be just fine.

Also, be grateful you're still alive.

[imdaman99]

Hey brother smoke. Sorry to hear about this but I'm glad you see the problem. We all have to change our ways to live longer. Drinking is just an escape. Find another escape. We are here for you during the process, ignore the trolls that serve no other purpose but to bring others down to their level. Will pray for ya, whether you want it or not

[Lebron23]

I pray for your complete healing in the mighty name of Jesus Christ.

[Jasper]

I pray for your complete healing in the mighty name of Jesus Christ.

10 4

[8Ball]

I pray for your complete healing in the mighty name of Jesus Christ.

+1.

Stop drinking.

[8Ball]

Karma for making fun of a 9 year old girls birth defect.


rest in piss OP


btw i can return because the test came back negative. it wasn't my kid LOL

How's the elephant doing?

[Kenny Griffin]

How's the elephant doing?

the kid? I dunno I never met it. I went over to the moms house and did the test when she was at day camp. I dont care if you make fun of the kids puffy cheek now btw cause it's not mine

[Shogon]

People are just going to use this against you now permanently. If you ever get to a healthy psychological state, it would be best to cease posting here immediately.