Originally Posted by NuggetsFan
Nowadays I can go weeks without having a drink and really no issues. When I do drink tho I go pedal to the medal and consume enough to black out tho. Kinda by choice tho seeing as I'm like 19.
My like best friend went to rehab for drinking\blow. Came out a child of god. Extremely creepy. He's always updating his FB status with like bible sayings. Joined these teen challenge groups and moved to like another province. Just crazy how rehab can change you when your addicted to a substance. Would never want to end up in a rehab.
the cool thing about 12 step groups is u dont have to believe in God persay, just a higher power. for instance your higher power could be the groups and support. it could be a fricken cup of coffee until u develop your own concept of a higher power.
i choose to believe in a benevolent spiritual force that speaks to us through our "conscience" or intuition. also in the form of symbols. the faith part is the only thing that makes god real. otherwise u can just have faith in energy itself, for surely in some form it exists.
i dont believe in any real objectivity. i think the objective is just an agreed upon system of data shared by multiple perspectives of the subjective.
the hardest thing is to admit for myself that im powerless over drugs and alcohol. i know im powerless because i end up blacking out, throwing up, and numerous times in the hospital all chasing that high or drunk.
and its never enough. like 12 step says in one of their cliches, 1 is too many and 1000 never enough. i can never find satisfaction with drugs and if i do it only lasts until the high is over.
i started out being interested in hallucinagens and psychedellics trying to find "ego death" or the feeling of oneness, also to pursue some kind of enlightenment. while I do think drugs are one path toward a type of enlightenment, its fleeting and does not last. at least for me.
some people might have profound life changing experiences with mushrooms or ayahuasca or lsd but I think you have to go in with a special mindset to really have a positive relationship with these drugs. it cant be that youre trying to escape something, it has to be that your legitamately trying to look inward.
personally i was trying to escape with drugs. thats why i can never have a positive relationship with them. if you guys are having trouble with drugs (i dont know why alcohol is seperated its a drug too) then only you can say you are truly an addict or alcoholic. 99% of the time it gets worse the more you use. it usually takes repeated "bottoms" or low points to get to a place where one could admit they need to do something about their problem.
for me personally, I have never been able to stay clean on my own. the support and friendship of fellow addicts/alcoholics is what I need to be reminded of my "disease" and stay on the right path.
it didnt work last time because i stopped going to meetings and I never got a sponsor. a sponsor is key to keep you accountable and go through the steps with me.
the steps are seperated in to three groups
they contain psych principles such as introspection and even though there is a very low recovery rate with no relapses I've seen proof that they work for the people who really want it, not those who simply need it.