i gotta say, its different, ya know. i want to go to the movies, but i feel kinda odd, like i need someone to talk about the movie with afterwards. and this city is not very easy to meet people; its dry, in the dessert, and full of churches.
Dude, even if you're kidding around, not healthy to put yourself down like that.
Why is it that you don't have any friends? don't have time? Socially awkward? Ugly? or D, all of the above? What is the contributing factor?
i have no idea. i don't think i'm socially awkward. i work well with people, but growing up i moved around a lot and never really got used to long term company, so i guess i have a habit wanting friends when i want them, then not wanting to be bothered when i don't.
if i do plan to attend a social gathering, i have to be high or else i do become socially awkward, mainly because i lose interest really fast in the most common interest people share.
my biggest with it is being caught between wanting to make friends and embracing being alone, as i like to write, and hope to make a career of it one day. a professor (who has published books) said that if i wanted to be a really good writer i had to get used to being alone. so i always have that in my mind and if i'm not high i'm just depressed.
Personally I've always been a loner and felt most comfortable alone even though I was 'popular' and had no issues making friends, being social, etc. Never liked moving in packs. Don't mind catching a movie by myself and doing other activities alone.
That fact never bothered me but it has cost me in terms of long term friendships.
From one bum to another, my advice: consider that everything you've done so far in your life has led you to where you are now. Not happy with the results of following your intuition all these years? Do the opposite.