Wow, I actually read every word.
Honestly though, going through it, I thought someone may have hacked your account coz from what I remember you're one of the more... eloquent (?) writers here on the board. Also, this sounds like something out of a Haruki Murakami book (which is probably why some of us were engaged enough to read the whole damn thing).
Anyway, maybe this is one of those out-of-the-ordinary, life-changing experiences that people go through. Take it for what it's worth, but make sure you get something good out of it that you know won't mess you up down the road (feels weird saying that to a man twice my age).