i have a few but the biggest is the one year i decided it was a better idea to take a year off college to work and save money, didn't end up doing even 50% work but it was a pretty good year
nevertheless, it was a wasted year of my life, good thing it was my early 20s
Instead of silly giggles and dry mouth, it brought constant internal struggle and reflection, in trying to understand and cope with the ideas it forced me to examine. The way I behaved, the way I thought, why I behaved and thought that way. The deeper meanings behind my actions, and how they affected other people. And all the serious anxiety and depression that comes from this type of self-examination.
In retrospect, I believe I was experiencing some form of positive disintegration. While simultaneously dealing with early life trauma that probably would have been repressed and lied dormant for many years otherwise.
Moving in with my last girlfriend after the family member she was living with passed away. She was very unstable and it set off an awful chain of events that completely decimated our relationship and with it, our 10 year friendship. It's been year since it ended, a few months since we talked, and I still think about her everyday.
Not trying out for the basketball team my senior year. I was a bench warmer even on JV, so I didn't think I had much of a chance at making varsity. After basketball tryouts finished, I saw a guy on the team that I knew I was better than from the season before. I think he only made the team out of loyalty even though many Juniors were better than him and were still on JV. In hindsight, I realized I would have also made it out of loyalty.
The first blow job I ever got I blasted in her mouth without any warning (after about 30 seconds ). Needless to say the relationship never progressed past that point.
Not saving up more money when i was younger. Anyone young, hoard your money ilke a miser.
there was the proverbial "one that got away" but considering she is still single (and content) and im married with 2 kids i cant complain on that really.
Got to college on a basketball scholarship and basically did no classwork. Left short of two years and WAY short of a degreee. I've been fortunate to find my way in the work world without that piece of paper, and have made a very good living for myself and my family. But there would have been far more opportunities/options open to me.
Turning down alot of nice *****.... reason? Had a beautiful GF, but its not that.. i was just to picky... "meh, she have to pointy elbows".. "meh, she has brown eyes.. i want green or blue"... "meh, not big enough boobs".. "meh, dont like her voice".. "meh, she is not a virgin".. "meh, she smokes"... "meh, she needs to lose 4-5 pounds".. "dont like her toes".. would have banged them with the fury of an angry god today tho...
Turning down alot of nice *****.... reason? Had a beautiful GF, but its not that.. i was just to picky... "meh, she have to pointy elbows".. "meh, she has brown eyes.. i want green or blue"... "meh, not big enough boobs".. "meh, dont like her voice".. "meh, she is not a virgin".. "meh, she smokes"... "meh, she needs to lose 4-5 pounds".. "dont like her toes".. would have banged them with the fury of an angry god today tho...
I don't have many regrets, all of my mistakes made me who I am today
I will say that I do regret almost every time I have hurt someone I cared about.
I used to drink a bit (as many of you know lol) and that resulted in saying and doing some really horrible things to a few ex-gfs...some of those things may have really scarred them
I am much more careful with what I say to those I love now...life is too short for hurting people who you love
your biggest regret?
). Needless to say the relationship never progressed past that point.
You're full of shit.
